I talk fast. I think fast. I drive fast. I make decisions fast. I move fast. Everything is fast. But I think it might be time to slow down. Welcome to the South. Where even the state troopers don’t drive the speed limit. Where people have a drawl, even when they’re hyped up on caffeine.
I never quite learned to rest. I wrote a while back about staying put. About how it might be time for me to be present where I’m at. But I think it’s more than that. I wonder if I’ll settle here. Although I may never settle. My heart is learning to beat for the land. And this land ambles. It does not run. It does not race. It does not scream at you to speed up. If anything, it whispers to slow down. It calls you to rest. It asks you to wait and see what might be around the next bend, because if you take it too fast, you might miss it, you might hit it, you might kill what could have been an opportunity. Life in the slow lane means not jumping to conclusions.
I think my heart has been so miserable because it is always racing, and I won’t listen to the beat. I followed it here, and then I forced it to keep me awake so that I could do far too much again. I’m not going to do far too much anymore though. I am going to breathe for a little while. I’m going to take things in stride. I’m not going to worry, I’m going to listen to the constant streams of consciousness that might be telling me that everything is okay, that good things do happen. I think I’ll live here, in the slow lane, for a while. And for anyone who tells me that it’s time to speed up, they can exit the vehicle. Because this is my life, and I’m going to claim it.