Take Me With You

Take me on a journey
Over mountains
Across seas
Past fields of endless possibilities
It’s time to tread roughly
On realized dreams
No more falling apart at the seams

Spying new realities
Just over the horizon
Something I’ve never experienced before
Warmth entering an endless spring

Winter is my home
Building a house from broken icicles
Basking in frozen tundra
I have made my home here

Finding it is time to move on
Can you feel my restless heart?
Beating frantically out of my chest
Pulled out by my roots
Just take me with you

Carry me
As I somehow plan on learning
To carry you

Dwell in me again
I’ll follow your footprints
Until I find you
Though you know I’m not trying that hard

Halfhearted attempts
To fall in love
With nothing at all

Lost again
Waiting to be found
Called out
As I struggle to remain hidden
In my darkness once again

Take me with you

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When a Stranger Speaks Your Name

I’ll rest in this a while
Although I’m not sure what this is
A stranger passing spoke my name
Without ever saying a word

I find myself unable to move
Carrying a weight of a land that I never knew was home
My heartbeat is this rhythm
The beat of the rain on the roof over my head

There is a love here that took me away
A longing that aches for a return that is on its way
Could you ever know it?
Wake up and hear this song

These words slap you across the face
Yet gently tuck you into bed
Somewhere safe to lay your head
As you belong here

A welcoming with open arms
An unexpected arrival
A pasture to lay down in
Sectioned off fields of fairness

Floating through every step
As if a ghost lives inside of me
Maybe it’s time to start listening
When strangers call my name

Whispers of warmth tracing across the cracks in this cobblestone heart
Hearing angels pulling at the seams
Take off your coat and feel the mist
Be ready to experience a homecoming

You don’t have to know where you are
In order to know that this foreign land is your home
Your entire life you have been on holiday
Let the prodigal return

Ireland waited for you
Embraced you in her loving arms
Not ready to let you go
Hear her in the whispers of strangers

Battlefield

Sometimes I can feel it coming
The darkness bites me, grabs hold of my ankle
It takes everything inside of me to shake it loose before it swallows me whole

I cannot let my light go out
I cannot let my fire die down
But I am powerless
This war inside of me does nothing to promote peace

Constantly I am reminded that I stand in the aftermath
But the flashbacks grow stronger everyday
I cannot let it win
I will not be eaten alive

New place, new people
They do not know who I used to be
It’s like PTSD, I might lash out at any moment
How do they not sense the danger lurking?

The child inside of me whimpers
Cries of terror shake my core
But on the outside, the quakes are mistaken for laughter

When the air stops coming
And gravity grows stronger
I find myself on the ground again
In a pool of my own misfortune
Because I never learned how to fight these battles on my own

Should I let this secret war escape my lips?
Will I be turned away in shame?
Left out on the curb like garbage
It’s the home I’ve grown to know

Spinning freely
Gasping for breath
I awake, drenched
I will never be opened, because I lost the key

The task ahead of me seems impossible
But I’ve come too far to turn back
Temptation to give up is pointless
Yet crossbones still fill my mind

Consciously waiting for the crack in my sanity to break open
The floodgates grow weaker by the second
There is no cement left to fix the leaks in my dammed heart
It beats down the walls; they will break

Holding my hands together
Fingers breaking in my own grip
Ripping apart seams that were never finished
Threadbare and waiting

I am a rock
Not strong enough for foundation
Breaking down into minerals
The light glints off me in the morning
At dawn, I shine