A little over three months ago my boyfriend and I packed everything up and moved across the country to my hometown in rural California. Our plan was to stay here for the summer, get jobs, save money, and move to Flagstaff. But with this economy things like that are easier said than done. So we're …
I was just reminded that I have had this blog for seven years. Seven years of rants. Seven years of poetry. Seven years of channeling my depression online. And I used to be good at it. I remember when I was in college, sometimes I would get so creative I would post twice a week. …
I used to be good at this. At writing. At collecting my thoughts and putting them somewhere. And I feel like I don't even have thoughts anymore. I keep trying to be the person I used to be, but maybe it's time to realize that I'm not. I never became the person that I thought …
I have a good job. I really like my job. I just got promoted at my job. And it's okay that I'm not doing the type of job that I thought I'd grow up to do. Welcome to our economy. The job market is fairly small. And sometimes it seems that people have forgotten that. …
You may be unaware of this, but I have been unintentionally angry with God for quite some time now. I'm not sure when it started. It's kind of like he's that friend that you want to be mad at, and then he does something wonderful and you're like, oh right, you're actually great, I'm just …
I have never been in love I have been in love a thousand times I fell in love With Wesley in preschool Told my dad all about our future life together I fell in love with that boy in my elementary class Fell in love what that boy at camp I couldn't stop looking to …
I think I may have found myself in a season of endings. And I think I've been here a while. School, friendships, relationships, jobs... should I go on? It's been a year since I graduated college. College ended. I moved on. My first two post-college jobs have ended. And nothing is what I thought it …
Today, I realized that I have been confronted with something that's been there for years, but it's something that I don't really know how to overcome. There are things inside of me that I want to say, but I literally don't know how to express them outside of myself. I could say, and have said, …
I probably shouldn't be writing any of this. And you probably shouldn't be reading it. So proceed with caution. I've been having a lot of thoughts, a lot of feelings, and an inability to grasp them or make sense of anything. My writer's block has been turning me inside out and hitting me against the …
I'm experiencing this thing called wondering how honest I'm allowed to be with people. I mean, am I even allowed to talk about what goes on in my dark mind on my blog anymore? Am I allowed to tweet that I'm feeling a little down? Can I announce that sometimes I go a little manic? …
