Goodbye 2016

I think most people would say good riddance to 2016.  It hasn’t been the worst year, but it’s been quite a year.

I started out the year working far too much and being home not enough and tired quite often.  I was spending time with someone who didn’t value me. I didn’t make priorities of the things that I should have.

In March, I made the biggest decision of my life so far and decided to pack up and move across the country, with no job, very little savings, and no place to live.  But I’ve fallen in love with my home here in Alabama.  I have great friends and my heart is finding somewhere to belong.

2016 will always be the year my mother died.  It’s not fair, how much this year has claimed.  The door is about to close here, and there’s nothing we can do to make 2017 the same.

I want to do great things in 2017.  I want to be healthy again.  I want to be even happier.  I want to adventure and try new things.  I want to learn to save and plan, while still having time to explore.

I want to fall in love with 2017.  Maybe fall in love in 2017.  We’ll see, I guess.

I wish that I had more to say.  There are a lot of words in my mind, but they tend to get stopped before they reach fruition.  So maybe writer’s block is weeds.

Here’s to 2017.

Bright Eyes

They called her bright eyes
Because her eyes shine bright like the stars, like her mind
They say she lights up every room, even if she’s hiding
With her soft demeanor and her smile that is kind

But she worries that her flame has gone out
She can’t shine for them anymore
She can’t even shine for herself as a cloak of darkness overwhelms her
Not knowing she’s still burning, deep down in her core

Fighting to become the person that they all thought she was
Forcing deep breaths in and out of her tired lungs
Not ready to face the fear she has become
All she sees before her she thought she’d left behind; thought she was done

They’d never know this all is crushing her
Trying so hard not to collapse beneath the weight she carries
On her shoulders, in her heart, she can’t bear it
Just drop it, Bright Eyes, let it go

She used to be a fire, unkempt
She brought warmth, light, and danger
She was wild, and they loved it
If only they could see her today

Maybe all she needs is a spark
Strike a quick match on the stone she is becoming
Light up her eyes; light up the world
Keep her close to your heart, she’s more than just a girl

There was a time when she was the life of the party
Maybe she could make her way back there again
Just warm her up, watch her go
In a sea of joy, we could watch her swim

Climb with her to a high, high peak
Let her be a lighthouse to those who don’t know they’re lost
Don’t let her hide, can you save her?
Maybe soon she can save you too

You see, they called her bright eyes
Her eyes are brilliant, her mind is bright
She thought her flame had gone out in her weakness
But she was wrong; she is strong

They call her bright eyes
Watch her as she burns