Here Before Your Feet

Here before your feet
Not what it seems
Paths that eyes can’t see
Captured within a strong mind
Resting in something else
We all know it
Acknowledging what we cannot know
Souls intertwined
Thoughts battling on their own
No winners
Only recognition
Finding precedence
Here before your feet

Disappearing Act

You wake up and pulled me closer
I can feel your breath on my neck
I feel unsafe and exposed
But I’ll let you have this moment
If only there are many more to follow

Yet there are never more to follow
And I wonder how far I’ll go until I find one that sticks
I go through the motions fitfully
Convincing myself that I’m ready this time
But you can see it in my eyes
You whisper, “What’s wrong?”

And you recycle me
Because I have been used and am no longer useful
You didn’t quite find what you were looking for
And once emptied, I no longer go with your decor
Left out on the street without another word

So I move on
To drinks and dinner and low expectations
Worried that he’ll want what you wanted
Letting him have his moment as you had your moment
But where is my moment?

I want love like a wildfire
Because I’ve already gone up in flames
Breaking everything in my path
Burning bridges so I won’t be followed
But I want to be found anyway
Because I am a rare gem
Though they never look hard enough to see what their holding
Beautiful in the daylight
Unconventional, but I’ll try to go with anything
Wear me out
Pull me in as I push you away
Tell me the truth
Or don’t say anything at all

I want you to be so aware of my presence that you can’t even sleep when I’m by your side
I know I’ve never slept with you by mine
Always searching for my escape
Constantly running away
Why couldn’t you have just given me something to run to?

So you’ll wake up and pull me closer
Trying so hard to get closer
But you can’t have your moment
I am not your moment
I am the whole damn story
Or a lapse in time

So close your eyes
You’re dreaming
Pull me closer
But I was never here

He is Everything

The simplicity of it is that he is everything
An infinite number of stories
All bringing us back to him
Because there is no other

Caught in a desert
Thirsting for life
There is always an oasis
Some place to call home

Yet I find myself asking where my oasis is
As if every season is a desert
Forgetting every step he’s led me before
I have no reason to be afraid

Steady my heart
It is longing for change
This season has ended
Where do I go from here?

It’s as if I already know the answer
I’m just too afraid to admit it
Choosing instead to dwell in a false confusion
Knowing I’m not broken, just finding pieces to my puzzle

This will all make sense eventually
Someday I’ll look back and laugh
I just wish I was laughing now
I don’t walk alone

He knows what I long for
He knows what I dream of
He gives me everything that I need
No matter what path I choose

And I think maybe it’s the choices that are the hardest
Being told for so long that the wrong one is detrimental
Yet finding the truth in a garden with many paths
I can choose my own way to the fountain

I will drink deeply
As I fall in love all over again
I was not made to worry
Finding myself in his everything

Not always entirely sure what I’m doing
But that’s what makes this all an adventure
These restless feet are ready to wander
As my restless heart quickens

I can feel the change coming
Let me just dwell in his everything
He is my everything
It’s just that simple