“Save Me”

“Save me”
Crying out
“Save me”
Clawing at the edges
“Save me”
Can’t pull yourself up

“I can’t do this on my own
Not anymore”
You yell this in his face
As he gently beckons
Just let go

Afraid of heights
Pulling yourself to the top of the pit
Will not look back at what you’re climbing from
Begging
“Save me”
Just let go

Beneath you
Right beneath you
Are arms poised and ready
Waiting for you to just let go
So they can catch you

“Save me”
Crying out
As you pull away from salvation
Not realizing you are saved
If you’d just let go

No longer waiting
No longer striving in fear
“Save me”
Words that are only memories to your lips
Just let go
You are safe

Anxious

Eyes
That are felt
Constantly
Though they’re not even there

Forgetting
That this fear
Is unreal
Unnecessary

Cowering
Hidden
In plain sight
Begging not to be seen

Noticed
Trying not to be
But maybe
Begging for recognition

Sitting in Silence

Sitting in silence
By myself
With myself
Really getting to know myself
As my purpose is forgotten

So utterly alone
Wondering if I can make it
On my own
As it’s too late
To abandon this quest

Empty home
Empty heart
Fill me up
To the brim
Overflowing
Welcome me in

No one said this was easy
Though I wish it was
It’s something I have to do
My hand is held
Let me just trust this

Within my chest
Lays a cavern
Where my heart still beats
Where my lungs still breathe
Take care of me

Mistaken identity
Please remember me
Though I won’t be returning to you
Anytime soon

I was used
Abused
And kept coming back for more
Because I’d forgotten how to feel
And I just needed to feel something

Yet now I feel too much
Threatening to pull away at every touch
Begging you to hold me
2,000 miles away
I’m lonely
Sitting in silence

Are You Listening?

This tastes wrong
Not the way it used to
Begging me to stay
Rather than pushing me to leave
Yet I am not even me anymore
So that could be part of the problem
As every passing moment pushes me closer to the edge
My demise is inevitable
Although I wonder if I can still be saved
My unwillingness to change will only hold me down
Still I am changing
Unrecognizable
Could you still find me?
Or am I already forgotten?
You’re not even looking anymore

I thought this was something else
Way back when
At the beginning
All the times I tried to correct my mind
It wandered anyway
And I don’t believe in any of this anymore
As my heart beats
None of it is for you
Though is it for me?
I’m guessing there is no answer

I have found myself searching again
No longer content
As every new face is a curiosity
Brinking on obsession
Though love is nonexistent
Something exists within me
That is begging to be loved
You never would
None of them could
It’s too late for that anyhow
So I’ll take my bow

I just needed a last hurrah
My eyes are set on one
Trying to keep it a secret
It’s already known
Please hear this
My words are scattered
Still ringing true
Whispering
Are you listening?

Afraid

I see it in your eyes
Hear it in your voice
Find myself alarmed
Because I’ve seen it all before
Only in myself

Terrified of what it might do to you
You push me away
Telling me you don’t feel what you feel
We are not what we are
Only figments
Of imagination

I asked for nothing
When you begged for something
Couldn’t push me to stay
As I tried to leave anyway

You latched onto me and held me tight
Now every night turns into a fight
As  you tell me to leave
Then expect me to stay the night

You are running away from me
Still accusing me of running
As I prepare myself for leaving
So I don’t fall

But why can’t we fall?
If only for a moment?
As our timing is off
Let me have this moment
Because a moment with you
Could be worth it

Can we let go?
Of this fear?
I don’t want to be afraid anymore
I just want you