I’ve disappeared a little. At least I feel that I have. Sinking into the floor. Sinking into my work. Sinking into a life that I’m barely living. So I think I’m ready to be done with this.
Next month I have an interview to get into grad school. I’ve been listening to a lot of podcasts lately and I realized that I really love stories. Maybe that’s why I thought I would be a writer. I’m not a writer. Not anymore. But I’m going to get my masters in counseling. I can hear stories. I can walk through stories with someone else, because I’ve learned that it’s really hard to walk through a hard story by yourself.
I’m looking for a house to move into next month. My lease is up and I’m so ready to be done with the roommate life. My things keep breaking or going missing. Kind of like my heart.
My car is in the shop again. For the same problem as before. Because the mechanics missed something. I’m learning that it’s better to go for quality over price, and even though I’m poor, I’m going back to taking my car to the dealer, just like I used to.
I don’t want life to be hard anymore. I don’t want simple things to seem impossible. I’m completely over this pointless depression. I thought we were done with this a long time ago.