There is a downpour
It is ripping through me
Ripping through my walls
Ripping through my shelter
I didn’t know the rainy season had started
I am scrambling to keep this all together
The clay I have used for safety is melting in the waters
My reinforcements are failing
I am exposed
The fire that I am
The fire that keeps me warm
It is not strong enough, it is going out
Why am I never prepared?
I let my heart be broken… again
Even though I try so hard not to wear it on my sleeve
It snaps in my own hands
As I hold it too tight, keeping them all away
When will I learn that I can’t do this on my own?
How many times do you have to teach me?
I thought I was done with lessons in strength
I knew not to let my weakness show
I don’t know what I was made for
But I can’t fit into this mold
I’ve lost too many pieces along the way
They’re all behind me on some old road
There is a downpour
And it is breaking me
Filling up my cracks
I am bursting apart
I didn’t know it was the rainy season
There is a downpour
And I’m not ready
Washing me clean when I thought I was stained
Stealing everything away, so only You remain
I didn’t know it was the rainy season