Not Satisfactory

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and I realize, I’m not satisfied.

I look at my life and decisions that I’m making, stupid, stupid decisions, and I am terrified.  I scare myself.  I wish I could go back, but as time goes on, we are ever pressing forward.  I feel like I was happier when I was sad, content with discontent.

I had a friend who tattooed herself “made for more,” because God created us for more than this.  We crave.  Is this where my dissatisfaction is coming from?  I don’t know what could satisfy me.  Of course God could.  And He should, but I’ll never have enough of Him.

I don’t know how to be normal.  And I know normality doesn’t really exist.  But really, where am I?

One thought on “Not Satisfactory

  1. Somewhere in between insanity and bored to tears lies normal. The pendulum that swings between them are our life choices. Keeping a balance between the 2 extremes keeps our mind at a serene state. Which is as close to normal as I have.

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