Exactly that. I need to be alone. I am a secretly ascetic person. I deal with things on my own. I spend my time with Jesus in solitary silence. I’m slightly extroverted, but much more an introvert. I just need to be alone.
I’m thinking about stopping the crazy person pills, but I’m feeling the stress even now. But if I can feel it, does that mean that they’re not helping me? I thought I was supposed to be better. I’ve been spending more time with Jesus, which should also make me better. Jesus is the great healer. I feel that right now though, I just need to be alone.
I have many things I need to get done. However, before any of that happens, I am going to lay in my bed and dwell. Just dwell here. I can dwell on the good things, contemplate the bad, and figure out how I’m going to make it through. I know that I’ve got this.
So that’s all. Nothing enlightening, nothing amazing; just someone needing no one else, realizing how much aloneness can comfort.