Exactly that.  I need to be alone.  I am a secretly ascetic person.  I deal with things on my own.  I spend my time with Jesus in solitary silence.  I’m slightly extroverted, but much more an introvert.  I just need to be alone.

I’m thinking about stopping the crazy person pills, but I’m feeling the stress even now.  But if I can feel it, does that mean that they’re not helping me?  I thought I was supposed to be better.  I’ve been spending more time with Jesus, which should also make me better.  Jesus is the great healer.  I feel that right now though, I just need to be alone.

I have many things I need to get done.  However, before any of that happens, I am going to lay in my bed and dwell.  Just dwell here.  I can dwell on the good things, contemplate the bad, and figure out how I’m going to make it through.  I know that I’ve got this.

So that’s all.  Nothing enlightening, nothing amazing; just someone needing no one else, realizing how much aloneness can comfort.