Honestly. Just stop it. It’s 2012 now, I don’t really get a choice about whether I want to see it or not now, it’s already here and I’ve already seen it.
I don’t really know that I have any new year’s resolutions, I’ve never made one before. I usually just change things in my life as they go, I suck at making goals for myself. I never know what goals to set. Maybe to survive and thrive.
I feel like I’m in trouble. A ridiculous amount of people suddenly is taking notice in me. It’s funny how, when I reach the end of my rope, then someone decides to realize that I may be in trouble. But I’m not in trouble. Anything that happens is my own fault. The fact that I am a messed up individual is my own fault. My depression, my suicidal tendencies, I own them, they’re my fault.
So, sorry for once again being an inconvenience by causing worry. I have said before that I’m not worth worrying over, and that’s not going to change. I have to change myself. I have to let God change me. I have given Him my life, now it’s time that I give Him my death, and everything in between.
2012, be happy, be full, be new, be Jesus. JUST BE.